Getting Closer

Wednesday is the day. I am terrified.
I am so scared I am going to come out of this surgery in worse condition than I went in.

Currently, besides some leg swelling and a heavy, and I mean, "should I go to the ER?" heavy period, I am fine.

The list of risks when you google "Myomectomy" is quite long but I have to keep ensuring myself that they are rare. I hope everything will be fine. I watch too many medical dramas.

My biggest concern is that I am going to end up infertile, but I keep telling myself, I am all ready infertile if I keep this fibroid in. Yes, it is possible that I could conceive and carry a pregnancy with it in but the risk of complication is high and I would likely end up with an even bigger fibroid and another miscarriage if I were to try to get pregnant with it in. Dr. S, thinks I could try. Dr. C says, no way. The fibroid is too big and pushing everything too far to the right. I trust Dr. C more. She actually took the time to read the MRI report, which I am not confident Dr. S did. Which is another matter, but people say Dr. S is an excellent surgeon, she just has a poor bedside manner and rushes her pre-op appointment prep.Not sure how I feel about that but I suppose it is better to have a good surgeon with a poor bedside manner, than a shoddy surgeon with a good bedside manner, right?

Anyhoo, I should go mark. I don't want to but it is my last evening to do so. I was at school until 6:15 preparing for a supply teacher. I think everything is good to go but the marking.