Feb. 19th

My surgery is scheduled for Feb. 19th.

I am terrified. Mostly because I watch too many medical dramas. I am trying to remind myself that people have surgery every day and turn out just fine.

I really hope everything goes well. Best case scenario, the fibroid will be removed with minimal cutting so I can have a vaginal birth if I get blessed with a second child, though I can deal with a C-section if the case may be.

I am kind of scared I am going to wake up without a uterus. Though, if it turns out I am infertile, I'd rather not have periods.

Ugh.

I am also not sure how I am going to manage recovery. I am not a sit back and heal type person. I am a push myself until I collapse from exhaustion type A person. It will be interesting. I plan on stocking the freezer with ready made casseroles and crock-pot delicacies this weekend.

To calm my doubts, my cycle this month confirms my need for surgery. Even though my periods aren't particularly painful, my legs have swollen all up and my bleeding has been horrendous! I filled my diva cup and a super pad every hour this morning. I considered going to the ER but they wouldn't have done anything for me. I know what the problem is and it is hopefully getting fixed next week. It was still a rough teaching day as it was incredibly distracting.

I am looking forward to being healed and well.