Laundry

I did 8 loads of laundry this weekend. I didn't get to it last weekend and when I did it before I didn't get to the bottom of the hamper. 

When I was folding things, I found myself thinking, "I was pregnant the last time I wore this." :( 

Plus, I wearing my maternity clothes to accommodate my ballooning fibroid belly. Because of the position of the fibroid it feels like kicking when food passes through different parts of my digestive tract.  It is so weird looking and feeling pregnant but not being pregnant. 

I forget than I am not pregnant anymore

sometimes. 

I bought a Doppler for a girl the day before I lost the pregnancy. I needed a few tops and a few days ago I noticed an add on Kijiji. It was the same girl. When I went to try them on she asked me questions about my pregnancy. She was so happy for me, I just pretended I was still pregnant rather than explain it is a fibroid tumour making me look like this. 

I am sad today. I just want a baby in my belly not a tumour.